The Kingdom of Heaven is at Hand

 Rebels say Qatar ready to market east Libyan oil
It sadden me to know I was right..has the United States stoop so low..that we will kill for OIL..I was reading this articile.that confirm what I thought..Listen to this..............A senior Libyan rebel official said on Sunday Gulf oil producer Qatar had agreed to market crude oil produced from east Libyan fields that are no longer in the control of Muammar Gaddafi.

"We contacted the oil company of Qatar and thankfully they agreed to take all the oil that we wish to export and market this oil for us," said Ali Tarhouni, a rebel official in charge of economic, financial and oil matters.
"Our next shipment will be in less than a week," Tarhouni told reporters in the rebel-held eastern city of Benghazi.State-owned Qatar Petroleum said it had no comment.
Small, energy-rich Qatar became the first Arab nation to begin patrolling a U.N. backed no-fly zone on Friday and has urged Gaddafi to quit to avoid more bloodshed.
Libya produced about 1.6 million barrels of oil per day before the crisis, or almost 2 percent of world output. Most of the oil is in the east, but sanctions and the lack of a marketing operation have stopped the rebels selling it abroad.The north African country relies heavily on oil exports, which pay the state salaries on which most families depend.
Tarhouni said output from east Libya oil fields that rebels controlled was running at about 100,000 to 130,000 barrels per day (bpd), which could be increased to 300,000 bpd.
Rebel fighters pushed west toward Gaddafi's stronghold of Sirte on Sunday after routing his forces in the town of Ajdabiyah with the aid of Western air strikes.
It was never about the King of the President being unfair..it was money..Be careful United States before the rooster come back to roost..Pray for us ..For their is Brother against Brother..Kingdom against Kingdom. Nation against Nation..who will suffer ..All will suffer and most of all ..Our Adult Children and their Children..Blood will flood in the street..Our Sons and Daughter are fighting for nothing but, Oil and Power..I am proud of Soldier..but, Why must they put their life on the lines for Greed..Tears flow from my eyes...as I write this note..God saves US..The Beginning of Sorrow is here...Who shall stand and speak..Who shall stand for Truth and Honor..Some say if there is a God..than why doesn't he do something..God is doing something..he is prolonging The End..giving us time to repent..for we are suppose to be One Nation of God..We are Sheep being led to the Slaughter..Pray for yourselves, your children and the Babies that will suffer for our trepasses...I cry for the people of Japan..The wicked schemes has already been put into affect..the switch has been pull..People of the United States the great and Terrible Day is upon us..Spread the word.. Repent. Repent..for only your faith and love for God will be able to save you Maybe your Children and their Babies..Close your eyes and see the destruction of your family..Should not that be enough to make you want to believe in the I AM..the only true God..
Galatians 6:7 Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.
8 For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting... Let no man deceive himself. If any man among you seemeth to be wise in this world, let him become a fool, that he may be wise.. Finally to Children ...1 John 3:7 Little children, let no man deceive you: he that doeth righteousness is righteous, even as he is righteous..Mother and Fathers , Parents and Grandparents teach One..Lead one...... Repent ye: for the kingdom of heaven is at hand..Amen

A Dream/ A Revelation

Today I dream..I am asleep..Today I dream I am asleep..lying in bed without voice. without utterance..knowing I am in dream state..hearing the sirens ringing in my head...over and over getting louder and louder..realizing in this dream state..I am not alone..in the next room..there lies a family member. I do not like not being able to move, having no utterance, not being able to speak.nor having a voice..in my dream state I think I will take control...with everything inside of me..I seemly force my lips to speak..I feel my lips utter that family member name..lois, lois, lois. my sister could not hear me. for she was asleep. but I kept trying while all the while the siren are going off. It came to me that I should pray..this was my only vice..for I am asleep..noone will hear me, not even in my dreams. so I prayed..what is it that I prayed..O memory leave me not!..I remember now.  What power do I hold even in dream state..A memory return to me..I remember the lesson God taught me.It was God speaking to me right now. I spoke the words in my spirit. God did not tell me it was a good day to die.So I will speak! and I will awaken!...whether it be in this life or the next..I will have power of utterance and my lips shall move and my words will flow..I will call out..So I begin to call out .I call out again..ever hearing the sirens going off.. Aha! My lips move I hear utterance..alarms..quietly ceasing..my eyes open..I am AWAKE. Heart still racing..what did I learn from this state of my mind..was I dreaming or was this actually my state of  mind?..Awake yet Sleep, or Awake and in Sleep..Could this be a state of mind of many of us?..wanting to utter, yet no voice come from our  lips. Sleep unable to wake?, alarms and warning going off around us ? Not realizing the power is given to us and lies bury deep inside us..to control the outcome..of all situations..by becoming connected to the inner being, the soul, the spirit..that is able to connect or disconnect with God. given to me the power of knowledge, to be able to solve many issuses in our personal lives or not to solve.. depends on your connections. if the soul is not connected..then you will snapped, or become disullusional, mentallly incapable, or emotionally unstable..which can lead to nervous breakdown..or just plain Ole disconncection to the spirit. Having a Voice means to be connected with God.for some others it may mean believing in another Higher power. In remember the dream..I had no voice, utterance, speech or control. By connecting with my soul and spirit..I was able to harness the POWER..The Power that God gives each one of us. that is so often not use to connect with the spirit, your spirit, your soul, your body which is connected to God..Praise God..Wow.:) Thanks God for the Revelation..This Blog is for you God.:)
P.S. Sister sorry for using your name..but, You are my big sister..and I do count on you and love you dearly..

Division Of Families

God always prepare you for whats about to come..A family has been divided..Five minutes ago..I had to turn over a friend children to their grandmother.. It was'nt turning the kids over to grandmother that bother me..it was the way it was done.I get a knock on the door..The grandmother, the grandmother sister and brother come to my home..They said I come to get the kids..I know the grandmother and family.We have talk about the welfare of the kids..The importants of her finishing the school year out..besides it was only going to be 26 days. and the mother would have been home...I feel that the grandmother could have show me the act of kindness and let me know she was coming..she knows I am not a trouble maker or loud mouth..The sister or female relative of the grandmother, stop and ask me, do you have the Food Stamp card..I said Yes. its in the purse..she stops and look in the purse..like I was a liar..I was throwed by that..but, I said to the female relative..Its in there..I am not like that. she said..I know..I just want to make sure everybodys cover..My issuse is not the grandmother coming to get her grandkids..it was her not coming to me as a Woman of God..saying Mary, I will be getting the kids tomorrow or whatever. she had previous agreed to letting me keep the kids for the 26 days until the mother return..I thought we were all taught as Children of King to do everything. Decent and in order..I love those kids.and have been there for them.for at least 5 years as the mother trys to get herself together..My sadness is for the Mother, the children..The mother is not a bad person. Just making bad decision and getting off the road to trouble.but, never once did she put the kids in a dangerous situation..So that is my Sadness, I know it was the right thing to do to for kids to be with their family..But, then why am I so Sad. Maybe I am wrong to think I know whats best..Maybe I am wrong to love people and children so much..My daughter often tells me. Mom, you get to attached. but, who can controll the heart..but, I know God knows Best..




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Got married Wasn't in love

It was the summer 1974. Can't even remember what month of day..I got married..Everything is a blur..I remember standing at the top of the stairs in my home..His brother coming up the stairs..Complimenting me about that day. He said you look just like a doll..It was the nicest things I heard said to me in a long time..I am only 17 years..with a 17 year old mind...But still I was impress..Feel with all kind of expectation of a fairytale life..as all young girl. have..Not knowing in reality..Marriage is what you make it..and you need to get to know the person. ..before you marry him. .does he or she fix the expectation you want for a husband. at least 85.9 percent..Will he make a good father..what is the relationship with his mother. These I know now..Oh yeah! are there any tell tale signs of abuse or any form mentally or physical..None, that I notice..but soon. I found out.. I should have ran..but my complaciness.and love of family..kept me there...and my two sons..Time brings on history. History brings somethings..But, too end the question..I did learn to love him..it would have been enough if not for the physical abuse..but enough of that..that will come in a book. maybe..don't want to put out another abusive wife syndrome book. not to deflate abuse..because I was abuse physically..So don't jump the gun ..domestic violence advocate..Wondering why I ever got married that day...I was inmature.and thought running away from a loving, strong and domineering mother in to the arms of a fairytale husband in my fantasy..would  solve everything..Boy, then I learn my lesson fast..Wrong solution, wrong answer..You have to try to fix the problem in front of you before you can go on to another form of relationship..I just wanted to get away from Momma..Ladies!!Don't do it..you are setting yourself for failure..Now divorce. young .no job..No self esteem..and stuck..No dreams..Life is a struggle..Life could have been better..Kids are adults and have kids of their own..I am over fifty..Doing well..Could have done better..Should have went back to school..Work harder..But, I didn't..So now life is what you make it..Life is Grand..For it could have been worse..I seen worse.What I am saying ladies make good choice..Follow the wise path..but if you want to be hard headed and follow the unstable road..then, life will be what you make it.....H.A.R.D.. But F.A.I.R....So be thankful..I am Grateful..

After looking back over my life after 50..It almost sad and depressing..yet there was periods of joy and excitement..I thought to myself what accomplishment have I achieve. I am not a middle class income women..I am not poverty level either..so where do I fit in..More depressing just writing this..Ok..grandkids a joy.Thats a improvement...Grown kids..love them dearly..Friends loving to come to me for advice or just to listen..I wonder why? Do they think I have this wonderful insightfulness..Wisdom beyond measure...Ugh???..Wonder do they know..I am human..with imperfection hidden from their eyes...Not by choice...Predestined to suffer in silence...Saddening delimina..Who will hear this woman cry after 50. Spiritual life..in a battle of flesh and spirit..so time consuming..so energy depleting..so confusing..Ugh..So incomplete. God help this woman over 50. I should have started a journal after 17..when I got married so young.and imaturely..Wow.I wasn't even in love..Just the thing to do get married and have kids..The American Dream..Sorta like a nightmare..Two Kids..Then Divorce..What????..Singleness..Who would have imagine this....Set back..couldn't seem to ever recover from that episode...Lovers, Friends..couldn't tell the different..S.T.O.P..this is not a book you are writing but a blog alter ego..Gee thanks..for the wake call..Reality.Still Single..Call the bouquet at my daughter wedding..first one..I think..who can remember..but If it was..Why am I still Single...I even meet this friend..and Thought that this was profound husband sent by God..Wow..what a devastation. that was..Lonely and a man..don't mix..after 7 years of celibracy..What a utilmate..let down..in every way..Smile..Then I went through Spirtual depletion..I tried and convicted myself..no matter..how many times God forgave me I couldn't forgive myself..This really suck everytime I think I am heal..Ugh hear comes the battle again..Soul searching..at the momemet..Will I get over this 50 thing and finally find happines????..whatever that is..Smile.I'll get back with you let you..or Not.. Thanks Alter ego after 50