A Dream/ A Revelation

Today I dream..I am asleep..Today I dream I am asleep..lying in bed without voice. without utterance..knowing I am in dream state..hearing the sirens ringing in my head...over and over getting louder and louder..realizing in this dream state..I am not alone..in the next room..there lies a family member. I do not like not being able to move, having no utterance, not being able to speak.nor having a voice..in my dream state I think I will take control...with everything inside of me..I seemly force my lips to speak..I feel my lips utter that family member name..lois, lois, lois. my sister could not hear me. for she was asleep. but I kept trying while all the while the siren are going off. It came to me that I should pray..this was my only vice..for I am asleep..noone will hear me, not even in my dreams. so I prayed..what is it that I prayed..O memory leave me not!..I remember now.  What power do I hold even in dream state..A memory return to me..I remember the lesson God taught me.It was God speaking to me right now. I spoke the words in my spirit. God did not tell me it was a good day to die.So I will speak! and I will awaken!...whether it be in this life or the next..I will have power of utterance and my lips shall move and my words will flow..I will call out..So I begin to call out .I call out again..ever hearing the sirens going off.. Aha! My lips move I hear utterance..alarms..quietly ceasing..my eyes open..I am AWAKE. Heart still racing..what did I learn from this state of my mind..was I dreaming or was this actually my state of  mind?..Awake yet Sleep, or Awake and in Sleep..Could this be a state of mind of many of us?..wanting to utter, yet no voice come from our  lips. Sleep unable to wake?, alarms and warning going off around us ? Not realizing the power is given to us and lies bury deep inside us..to control the outcome..of all situations..by becoming connected to the inner being, the soul, the spirit..that is able to connect or disconnect with God. given to me the power of knowledge, to be able to solve many issuses in our personal lives or not to solve.. depends on your connections. if the soul is not connected..then you will snapped, or become disullusional, mentallly incapable, or emotionally unstable..which can lead to nervous breakdown..or just plain Ole disconncection to the spirit. Having a Voice means to be connected with God.for some others it may mean believing in another Higher power. In remember the dream..I had no voice, utterance, speech or control. By connecting with my soul and spirit..I was able to harness the POWER..The Power that God gives each one of us. that is so often not use to connect with the spirit, your spirit, your soul, your body which is connected to God..Praise God..Wow.:) Thanks God for the Revelation..This Blog is for you God.:)
P.S. Sister sorry for using your name..but, You are my big sister..and I do count on you and love you dearly..

Division Of Families

God always prepare you for whats about to come..A family has been divided..Five minutes ago..I had to turn over a friend children to their grandmother.. It was'nt turning the kids over to grandmother that bother me..it was the way it was done.I get a knock on the door..The grandmother, the grandmother sister and brother come to my home..They said I come to get the kids..I know the grandmother and family.We have talk about the welfare of the kids..The importants of her finishing the school year out..besides it was only going to be 26 days. and the mother would have been home...I feel that the grandmother could have show me the act of kindness and let me know she was coming..she knows I am not a trouble maker or loud mouth..The sister or female relative of the grandmother, stop and ask me, do you have the Food Stamp card..I said Yes. its in the purse..she stops and look in the purse..like I was a liar..I was throwed by that..but, I said to the female relative..Its in there..I am not like that. she said..I know..I just want to make sure everybodys cover..My issuse is not the grandmother coming to get her grandkids..it was her not coming to me as a Woman of God..saying Mary, I will be getting the kids tomorrow or whatever. she had previous agreed to letting me keep the kids for the 26 days until the mother return..I thought we were all taught as Children of King to do everything. Decent and in order..I love those kids.and have been there for them.for at least 5 years as the mother trys to get herself together..My sadness is for the Mother, the children..The mother is not a bad person. Just making bad decision and getting off the road to trouble.but, never once did she put the kids in a dangerous situation..So that is my Sadness, I know it was the right thing to do to for kids to be with their family..But, then why am I so Sad. Maybe I am wrong to think I know whats best..Maybe I am wrong to love people and children so much..My daughter often tells me. Mom, you get to attached. but, who can controll the heart..but, I know God knows Best..




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