Got married Wasn't in love

It was the summer 1974. Can't even remember what month of day..I got married..Everything is a blur..I remember standing at the top of the stairs in my home..His brother coming up the stairs..Complimenting me about that day. He said you look just like a doll..It was the nicest things I heard said to me in a long time..I am only 17 years..with a 17 year old mind...But still I was impress..Feel with all kind of expectation of a fairytale life..as all young girl. have..Not knowing in reality..Marriage is what you make it..and you need to get to know the person. ..before you marry him. .does he or she fix the expectation you want for a husband. at least 85.9 percent..Will he make a good father..what is the relationship with his mother. These I know now..Oh yeah! are there any tell tale signs of abuse or any form mentally or physical..None, that I notice..but soon. I found out.. I should have ran..but my complaciness.and love of family..kept me there...and my two sons..Time brings on history. History brings somethings..But, too end the question..I did learn to love him..it would have been enough if not for the physical abuse..but enough of that..that will come in a book. maybe..don't want to put out another abusive wife syndrome book. not to deflate abuse..because I was abuse physically..So don't jump the gun ..domestic violence advocate..Wondering why I ever got married that day...I was inmature.and thought running away from a loving, strong and domineering mother in to the arms of a fairytale husband in my fantasy..would  solve everything..Boy, then I learn my lesson fast..Wrong solution, wrong answer..You have to try to fix the problem in front of you before you can go on to another form of relationship..I just wanted to get away from Momma..Ladies!!Don't do it..you are setting yourself for failure..Now divorce. young .no job..No self esteem..and stuck..No dreams..Life is a struggle..Life could have been better..Kids are adults and have kids of their own..I am over fifty..Doing well..Could have done better..Should have went back to school..Work harder..But, I didn't..So now life is what you make it..Life is Grand..For it could have been worse..I seen worse.What I am saying ladies make good choice..Follow the wise path..but if you want to be hard headed and follow the unstable road..then, life will be what you make it.....H.A.R.D.. But F.A.I.R....So be thankful..I am Grateful..